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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 09:49

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I had hoped to write a book about this .

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

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All the time i was locked up.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

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The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

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Thats was my nicest nick name for him

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Have you ever been physically attacked by a demon?

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

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Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

How do you recognize when your mental health might need attention?

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Who then, do I blame.?

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

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Was to survive, this bastard.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

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The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Put me off passion for life!!

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And i lived it daily.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

What does it mean if you dream your dad died?

I have no regrets .

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

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Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

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And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

He knew the spot.

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He was dying to do it , i knew.

It was going to be , some day.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

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But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

This is soul school!.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

I was very sick at this time too.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I was seconnd youngest,

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I write beautiful poetry .

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Would this be the day?

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

When she asked me how she looked .

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I was 9 years of age.

Especially a lifetime of it.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

My family never makes their pension either.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

One cannot live in the past .

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

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His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

I waited trembling.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

But it wasn’t much.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

(And it was in our own minds.)

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

He resisted the act ,that day.

What did i know ?

I said to her

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

My life is so biszare .

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Where the ultimate outsiders.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

I could never make a relationship work though!

But, we were locked up after school.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I think the readers, may guess!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Im still living with it.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

We all went to grammer schools

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

We were not on the streets..

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I never cut or harmed myself..

I was scared of men, in general

Im dying but, im not bitter.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

But ive been too sick for many years..

She found it foreign!.

She married twice! .

She was in good health!

Ive learnt so much.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

I will be 64.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

As i do to all so called friends.?

So whats the point in blame.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

So, i spoilt her more .

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Comes on , in middle age.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

I don,t even have a pension.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I couldn’t, believe it.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Why did i forgive my father ?

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I did it because my mum asked me too!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

She loved him until the end.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

She wouldn,t have been !

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.